>I can’t sleep. So I am looking at hotels in New York. And Boston. I seem to be planning to travel. Or kill myself. Feel shit. Seeing L tomorrow. Tired. Was about to have a Diazepam but remembered I did actually have one about half an hour ago. Probably best not to have more. Wish I wasn’t here. Useless. Fat. Horrible. Worthless. Need it to stop. Need control. Need something.
>Night time
March 16, 2010 by bippidee
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24. Female. From the UK. Variety of mental health problems. This is primarily my space to ramble about how I am feeling, and what is going on in my life.I blog anonymously for various reasons; if you happen to come across this blog and know who I am then please respect my wish for anonymity, and I would appreciate it if you could let me know. Thank you.
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>Seems we were both reduced to blogging at silly o'clock in the morning 😦 Hope you eventually got some sleep.
>Oh hun, I wish I had something useful to add. Just hope you slept in the end and are feeling a little better.*hugs* x
>Check e-maily. xxx
>I hope you get some sleep. I'm also a 23 year old in the mental health minefield and it isn't a fun place to end up.I hope things look up for you.Come visit me at It's Time To Get Over How Fragile You Are sometime!Annie
>I understand your feelings…